Tag Archives: mania

catastrophic grace

let me get a little crazy! let me disencumber,              OVER FLOW                      in vingar, puking birds over cuckoo’s nests where i rest my resting- less head in restlessness!!!!! pluck me formal formed feathers from cocks’ tails with a cocktail … Continue reading

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mania haunts my dreams

be scared like me in broken records with blackouts lasting for .m.i.l.l.i.s.e.c.o.n.d.s. between blinks– — — you don’t even notice until your voice is muted between my ears     –save me please– mouthing a scream (i think) , i think the … Continue reading

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Attempting REM

Seroquel watches the madness until the wake look at welkin, hoping sleeplessness could end after the alarms are set. Rationalizing mania through a prayer bound by an attempt to avoid begging                             (despite its synonym) leads her from sleepless to … Continue reading

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Volc-irenic

Taking a noetic perspective on insomnia— if it runs through blood or in this lava— leaves my eyes red and heavy, chasing my shadow and sweating from erupted responses that delayed the flight of a thousand tears; now a sadistic … Continue reading

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HAPPY!

I don’t feel all right, I don’t feel okay, I actually feel utterly happy! I don’t want to sleep, I don’t need to eat, Not when I am completely happy! But what did you say? Why must you put it … Continue reading

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Bitterness

It has nothing to do with him but it has everything to do with him: She left on a sour note. So sour, it was hard to swallow. She couldn’t bare the after-taste. She couldn’t even say goodbye. At least … Continue reading

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The Creek

Welcome to my Shangri-la Here, the trees bend and coat the creek In a kaleidoscope of breathless leaves. They drifted like my memory That now lay possessed by tragedy. I once found comfort in such a sleep As the fading … Continue reading

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Bipolar Insanity

In the USA, reflecting on my temporary insanity… Long before anything I ever knew, There was something that wanted to be true. But despite my silly apprehensions, I was led to believe of a life in another dimension. The truth … Continue reading

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Sight

(Song written in India 2013) I sing to you stuck in a dream Of light, love and perceiving Perceiving my guilt and sorrow blues To be because of your inching clues I miss you more than lifetimes past Now I … Continue reading

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What is Love?

(Song written in India 2013) What is love but the choice to be? The world is round, the grass is green. What is love but two souls in air? The high and low, the love and scare. What is this … Continue reading

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