Category Archives: Bipolar Disorder

my dear space, time will tell

i fear we won’t watch our facade cave in. amongst all my love, i really look forward to wearing coral lipstick. but last night, when you said you didn’t see my face paint, i’d wondered what else you were blind … Continue reading

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My Last Night

I charred their bones that night when I let the snow fall up my nose. Convincing myself that falling stars were meant to breathe in like the Indian breeze is meant for scorched skin. My sin was begging for snow. … Continue reading

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they call it a panic attack… or acid flashback

i timed how many thoughts left and made their way past the moon. why did i drape in smoke? my thumbs stay active, flicking ashes, pretending sanity can be caught through a filter; i’m done spinning webs of my own. … Continue reading

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catastrophic grace

let me get a little crazy! let me disencumber,              OVER FLOW                      in vingar, puking birds over cuckoo’s nests where i rest my resting- less head in restlessness!!!!! pluck me formal formed feathers from cocks’ tails with a cocktail … Continue reading

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mania haunts my dreams

be scared like me in broken records with blackouts lasting for .m.i.l.l.i.s.e.c.o.n.d.s. between blinks– — — you don’t even notice until your voice is muted between my ears     –save me please– mouthing a scream (i think) , i think the … Continue reading

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To the Right

These palm trees don’t sway right in the wind that doesn’t sting like Chicago. I can’t remember if thats where I began. My spirit came alive where                                     the air                                           was salty                       … Continue reading

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i should build a levee

silver is becoming attractive to my whims. i imagine nuzzling razors tenderly against my skin.. i imagine the Nile that crawls from my wrist to be emptied in a red sea as i open my fist. reveal an atlas of … Continue reading

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Thinks I Thought

I ask the paper to lie and pry in the corners of my mind so I could know where my thoughts went that night and all the nights that followed with all the drugs that flowed. It all came to … Continue reading

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Sentencing Lala

High is when the temperature is Fashionably late and your heart Is the strobe cruising along the Arabian sea knowing you can Drive to Dubai from Kannur Within a day through the water Held in a bottle of eye drops … Continue reading

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Attempting REM

Seroquel watches the madness until the wake look at welkin, hoping sleeplessness could end after the alarms are set. Rationalizing mania through a prayer bound by an attempt to avoid begging                             (despite its synonym) leads her from sleepless to … Continue reading

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